A Young Man's Letter to His Future Lover
Dear Future Lover,
I don’t know who you are yet, but I’m still waiting for the right time to talk to you and share things with you. I don’t need a perfect lover to be with me, I just need someone who would appreciate me and all the things I love to do. The right one who will not judge me but can definitely say the awkward words in front of me and just accept me for who I am.
Before you, life was not easy. It never is and never will be. But you give me something to look forward to. At some point I thought of you not being there for me…at all. I mean, what if destiny betrayed me and lead you to another person? What if we never met? What if I was meant to be alone for the rest of my life? Those lonely days when I’d wish you’d come early.
I don’t care what your physical appearance is. I just want you to be able to make me laugh. I always go for personality, good looks are just bonus prizes. I’m just so glad I met you. We’d do silly things together, go on adventures, take pictures, look into each other’s eyes, share kisses in the rain, travel together and tell how much we love each other — just like the movies. Or, it doesn’t have to be all romantic, love-dovey; just plain and simple. And maybe we can watch a movie or crack jokes together. Can we do that?
By the time you are reading this, I am assuming that you and I are in a state of slowly merging our very different worlds together. I do hope we’ll work out. I hope you’ll understand me for all my flaws. I am not a very lovable person you know, I can be the laziest, crankiest, and most immature person in the world. You’re going to be so annoyed at me that you’ll regret ever deciding to date me. I’m not very appealing either. I hope it doesn’t bother you. Truth be told, i’m scared i might not be good enough.
When we fight, either it will be the smallest or the worst of all fights. It’s ok to be mad at me but I’ll promise you I’ll stay. And I’ll hope you’ll do too.
I know you also have your own ways in dealing with what’s going on between us but please don’t put so much pressure on me or I will try to push you away to seal my feeble heart from possible wounds. Let’s take things slow. Wherever this relationship takes us, I want you to still be you — the person I fell in love the first time.
Just in case our relationship won’t last till forever, I want you to remember that you were one of the best parts of my forever. I will always love to have that memory that one time in my life, there was this someone who made my heart skip a beat, made me feel alive, gave me butterflies in my stomach, and let me understand love and pain in some way. Even if this turns out not the way I was expecting it to be, I’m just glad that somehow, we were two people chilling out, enjoying each other’s company.
Remember that God works in His own ways. He always has something greater in store for us than the love we offer to Him and to others.
I’m not sure I’m exactly ready for you. And i really think i’m not. But, one day, when I find you, I want you to love me as much as I’ll love you. No pressure.
“A Lover” means a lot to me, like being my friend whatever happens and on the other side is being my knight in shining armor :))
If there’s a chance that we’re going to meet, I want you to tell me such true things and not pretending. So if you’re the right one for me, I’ll be waiting to meet you soon :))
Your Future Lover,
Jimmer Ariate